Truth - another one

Sometimes I send a less than flattering photo of myself to some one I am talking to to see if they will high tail it. Because, really, you should like all facets of a person including the less than flattering ones. Plus, I wouldn’t be upset if some one like me for my personality first.

Today I sent one with a big smile and teeth which I never show any one or post because I hate the way my face looks when I smile like that. That’s no secret around here. I am super self conscious about that and it makes me very uncomfortable and I usually cover my face when I smile like that. It’s not that I have bad teeth or anything, I just hate how my face looks all scrunched like that.

They didn’t high tail it and run. I’m still wondering why.

Truthful Tuesday - I woke up feeling a little low. I have my deep thinking face on and every one can see it. Four people at work have asked if I am alright. So, that means the whole office is worried about me, because there are only five of us here.
Mostly, it is work on my mind but hopefully by the end of the week it will better. I hate not doing a good job and it wears on me if I do not. I am constantly feeling anxious when I know there is work to be done and people waiting for me to get back to them. People are always telling me not to check my email from home, but, if I don’t, then I think about it allllllll night. It’s best if I just do it. Then I know.
Also, it is hard for things to stay simple and light. Every thing becomes messy and complicated. I live in a constant state of upheaval in at least one area of my life. I know, I do it to myself. I should simplify things. I really should. But, then I get restless because I feel like there should always be more. I only met my father’s father a few times, the last time we stayed a whole weekend with him. He told me I had a restless soul. I have never forgotten that conversation. I am hoping to find, some day, the thing that calms that restlessness in me. That grounds me and makes me feel whole. Even if I have to find that in myself, I need to find it.
I think I am rambling at this point. I need to get back to work. Sorry, not sorry, for all of the selfies the last few days. You guys like my face. Admit it.
Have a great day!

Truthful Tuesday - I woke up feeling a little low. I have my deep thinking face on and every one can see it. Four people at work have asked if I am alright. So, that means the whole office is worried about me, because there are only five of us here.

Mostly, it is work on my mind but hopefully by the end of the week it will better. I hate not doing a good job and it wears on me if I do not. I am constantly feeling anxious when I know there is work to be done and people waiting for me to get back to them. People are always telling me not to check my email from home, but, if I don’t, then I think about it allllllll night. It’s best if I just do it. Then I know.

Also, it is hard for things to stay simple and light. Every thing becomes messy and complicated. I live in a constant state of upheaval in at least one area of my life. I know, I do it to myself. I should simplify things. I really should. But, then I get restless because I feel like there should always be more. I only met my father’s father a few times, the last time we stayed a whole weekend with him. He told me I had a restless soul. I have never forgotten that conversation. I am hoping to find, some day, the thing that calms that restlessness in me. That grounds me and makes me feel whole. Even if I have to find that in myself, I need to find it.

I think I am rambling at this point. I need to get back to work. Sorry, not sorry, for all of the selfies the last few days. You guys like my face. Admit it.

Have a great day!

Ooh I love Kona’s koko brown ale. Haven’t tried that one yet.

OMG, I am waiting and waiting for the Koko to come back for the season. It is taking too long!! Do you have it over there now? I might need to drive down then! I like the big wave. I tried the Coastal IPA but it is too much for me. You might like it then! ;)

Thanks for the love!